A message to the doubts in my mind and the knots in my stomach.
Less than a week prior to beginning my internship at the Indiana State Museum, the nerves have started to kick in. It’s routine at this point, for me to get nervous days before any big event in my life, despite the fact that nothing particularly traumatic has ever come from a similar event; things almost always turn out 100% better than my doubt-filled mind has decided they’ll go.
This internship opportunity has multi-layered reasons to cause anxiety for me, which I will not delve into for the sake of positivity (WordPress is telling me that ‘positivity’ is not a word, but I double-checked, and it is). On some level, my brain is well aware that I can handle whatever the museum and my new supervisors might throw at me, but that hasn’t stopped me from noticing the doubts rolling around in the back of my mind over the past few days.
So, I sat down to write this blog entry as a reminder to myself that I can, in fact, handle this and that those doubts are welcome to leave any time now because they have no grounds for their argument:
At twenty years old, I have worked hard enough to secure multiple scholarship opportunities which are covering the cost of my schooling, I have a steady job with a supervisor who genuinely values my work and well-being, I have support system in my relationship, my family, and my university, and I’m well-known for having a great work ethic and abundant self-discipline. I can do this, and more than that, I can be one of the best interns the Indiana State Museum has ever had.